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Same Old Shit

You know the feeling when everyone seems to be oversharing the most mundane aspects of everyday life and you, a fellow social media account holder, are feeling more and more like a troll and less and less like a once-happy participant? Yes. That is me right now. Social media silent troll. Not on purpose! I became this monster. 

I very rarely hit "Like" on anything these days and find myself unfollowing more accounts each day. Why? When did Instagram become so ....blah. Is it me who changed?

Honestly, I should just give it up all together and only post here — my favorite empty hallway to yell into — but I think the only thing keeping me on Instagram right now are the meme accounts I follow. Even then though! I'm like, How do the FuckJerry's and the beigecardigan's of the world get away with essentially plagiarizing people's funny work for their own monetary gain?!

I feel it happening; I'm aging into a new phase of my life as the eternal grump. That older person that is constantly shaking their heads and telling millennials to get off the fucking lawn.

Blog-wise I'm less interested in photographing myself these days and more interested in waiting until I have something worthy and original to say. Even if it is a rant (which this post definitely is). 
I'm working on another one of those little experiment books, but between the new job and trying to be good at it, and trying to be a good daughter, and wife, and friend!, that leaves me with less time than I used to have for such things. 

Oh, I'm also working on more paintings because it makes me feel good to paint. 
All this making shit still makes me happy, but it still takes time.
More time than it takes to go outside with a camera and pose in front of an interesting wall.
More time than it takes to #chasethelight and take the perfect #selfie with just the right amount of nonchalance. 
I'm perfectly ok with this since it seems like the antidote for todays avalanche of daily hurried unoriginal shit, and despite my loner braggadocio attitude secretly hope you are ok with too.